Mommy makes it all better, and she's already having a hard time letting go of her baby. I'm suffering from baby withdrawl, and I won't even be leaving for another month.
Emily has started smiling at me even when I'm not looking at her. I will feel her eyes on me, and when I turn to face her, she has the biggest grin on her face. She loves being propped up on my legs and will smile and coo at me for ages. She's extremely close to me and doesn't react to others in quite the same way. All of that is natural, but I guess a part of me is afraid of losing it. Will she transfer her affections, or will Mommy still hold that special place? I also can't bear the thought of her crying and wondering where I am. The thought of not being there when she wants me causes almost physical pain. I understand my mother better than I ever thought I would.
It will be an adjustment period for David as well, but he's old enough to have a better understanding. He's more used to me coming and going. Sigh. No one said it would be this complicated.
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