I was sitting on the front steps of the apartment building last night, just looking up into the darkness and thinking. Out of nowhere, a wave of fear hit me like a ton of bricks. What is my life? I have 1.5 to 2 years of school left before I start hacking it out in "the real world." Even now, I don't question why I'm here or where my life is going. I just live. Life rocks on day after day, but I never give it any thought. Then BAM! Freak out! Ah well. I'm not going to let it bother me. I'm just thinking too much. Things are good. Last year was a bit of a blur and void of academic motivation, so I'm looking forward to making this one count. :)
I was standing in the middle of the deserted parking lot last night, watching the fog roll in. All passing traffic had ceased, and out of the darkness, a bird started singing. It was an odd sensation...very eerie, but very cool. :) Simple things like that (a summer evening, a conversation, laughter) just make me smile. :)
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yes we certainly do just let each day slip by us but dont worry about the future so much. After your 4 years there is always your masters, doctorate, and post-doc which will occupy at least the next decade or two. If you are still unsure, gimme a call... ill draw something out of a hat and solve all your problems.
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