So I guess it's all settled in one way or another.
I was discussing friends and such with another chum last night. It seems that certain people always have good intentions, but those intentions never really seem to pass the test. My friend described it as a lack of will - no desire, willingness, or energy to take action. It's very easy for me to become perturbed, because I realize that some of the people I love most in this world will never pull out of the chasm of self-inflicted hardship. They lack the will to make a change. So! Onwards and upwards.
In college it seems that low motivation is a chronic illness. The "I don't care" mentality leads to stress...stress leads to fatigue...and the results are less than pleasant. It is for this reason that I feel compelled to eat my own words and prove some things to myself. Isn't it time someone proved that they care as much for me?
I hate writing something so melancholy on Christmas Eve, but I needed it out of my system before it ruined the entire holiday. I promise more cheer and good will to men later.
2 comments:
Hey kid. I'm sorry that you're frustrated with people who won't commit- indeciveness is one of those things that makes me want to tie a ball and chain to my ankle and toss myself into the sea, so I understand what you're feeling to some extent. Why are people like that? Is it some kind of insecurity or just a manifestation of their lack of maturity? Boo hiss. Ack, gotta run to church. Anyways, I love ya girl! Don't worry, somebody amazing will prove that they care as much for you as you care about them- I know it! Merry Christmas!
Erin! Yay! I've missed you, girl! Yeah, I know. A lot of this goes back to last night. Ben and I were discussing people in the past (friendship and relationship wise) who have this particular problem. I guess it just got me down because I realized so many of the people I cared (and still care) so much about are this way, ya know? Ah well. It happens to the best of us, but I have been blessed with a wonderful group of very loving individuals who do a pretty good job making up for all of the silly people. Hehe. Speaking of...Jessica just talked to me about the progressive dinner thingie. I had no idea! Haha. I'm pretty sure it won't be a problem, though. :) Sounds like fun! We sold our house, btw. Ahem. I'm getting ahead of myself and forgetting that this is a little comment and not an email or post - hehe. Have a very Merry Christmas, my friends. MUCH LOVE, and thanks for the support.
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