"I see your true colors shining..."

The past two days have been absolutely amazing. I have gotten to spend an incredible amount of quality time with family members and old friends. There were so many happenings that I'm afraid to list them for fear of leaving someone (or something) out, so I will just highlight a few of my favorites:
1) Playing volleyball barefoot, in a wet front yard (rain), on a crowded street (hit number three for the baby blue sebring...)
2) Open, honest discussion of a great many topics, while sitting at the lake
3) One of the most memorable conversations to date with a best friend <3
4) Another amazing performance by BRB (followed by Jamocha Shakes and family relaxation time)
5) Holding my baby cousin for the first time

Being here for three weeks has been nice. :)

Confused. Don't know what to think or feel. Scared of so many things.

...but happy about my room.

"You wanna be where people are"

I don't think I have anything to say. I would write about the weekend, but I'm too tired to really remember it. Haha. I'll try, anyway.

Saturday was spent cleaning out the garage and going to Olive Garden (where I saw Jenni...what are the odds?) for Mom's birthday. Sunday consisted of church, picking up the rest of my decorating materials, and creating a 24x36 (framed) collage of photos to hang above my bed. I dicovered that the photos will probably never come off of the board (I tried), and I'm not sure how I feel about that. Hehe. It's good that they're going to stick, but...wow...it kind of depresses me to know that I just sealed the fate of THAT many photos. They will never be JUST photos again. From here on out, they MUST remain part of a collage, their identities meshing with the identities of other photos from different times and places. OH, THE INHUMANITY!!! Hehe.

Anyway. I started reading "The Three Musketeers" again. I love that book. I think I will read it some before falling asleep. Goodnight. :)

"A light shining through"

A thunderstorm rolled through a couple of hours ago, and there is still lightning in the distance. I had stepped out onto the front porch to check my messages (no reception in the house), and stopped to admire the clouds passing over the moon (one resembled Falkor - hehe). Relocating to the driveway, I listened to the drip drip of water in the gutters and felt the wet pavement beneath my feet. I began thinking again, but this time the looming feeling was gone. Taking a deep breath and smiling, I made my way back into the house. On the way upstairs, I noticed that it had just turned 12:00. How appropriate. I was hoping that Friday would be better than Thursday, and it is...even at 12:07 in the morning. ::smiles::

"Even the best fall down sometimes"

Tonight was perfect for just sitting on the porch and thinking. There is something about damp evenings. Night creatures begin singing, and as darkness falls, thoughts just kind of tumble around unbidden. In a way this is good, but in a way it is bad. I'm afraid I've been in a very dark mood all day. Perhaps it is appropriate that I went to see "Revenge of the Sith" with the family tonight. Bwaha! The dark side... Hehe. Anyway. I feel like something is looming just over the horizon. I never know what is waiting, but my mind will fill in the gaps, creating numerous scenarios. Some scenarios change...others come and go...but there is always one that remains the same. So I wait and hope that the feeling will pass unfulfilled (as it has before). I'm not sure why this happens occasionally, or what initially triggered it, and I suppose it doesn't really matter. Ah well. Tomorrow is Friday. Friday is good. Everything is better on Friday...right...?

"Revenge of the Sith" was very good. At first, I was afraid it was going to cheese out like episodes I and II, but it didn't. Everything is tied together very well with the first trilogy (IV-VI), and there were some really great moments. George finally managed to redeem himself a bit. Hehe. I hope everyone is having a good summer. I suddenly feel so disconnected.

Here's to a good tomorrow.

"Help me to discover..."

So everything is moved into my room. Here's hoping. I had everything arranged the way I wanted it, but the fact that the bed was blocking half of the window made me switch everything around right before I left. I think I'll like the new setup better because it gives me a little more lounging space, but now I have a HUUUUGE blank wall. ::heavy sigh:: What to do? I'm sure I'll think of something...

Hopefully, I'll be able to move the entertainment center down sometime next week. Then we can start decorating the living room. :-D Baby steps, of course. As I look at future expenses, I realize that I'm going to have to pick and choose where I want to (read: can) spend money. I can feel the creative wheels beginning to turn. Hehe. This should be fun. :)

Anyway! I hope to spend time this week catching up with more old friends. :) Have a great one! Much love.

"you're still in bed at ten...and work began at eight"

Today, I was surprised to discover that I now semi-enjoy the household chores I used to despise. There's a homey satisfaction in realizing that the laundry pile is only a quarter of its original size. There is also a great sense of accomplishment in making sure that all of the dishes are put away so that dinner utensils won't clutter the sink. I straightened up my room, not because I HAD to, but just because I wanted to.

I spent time with old friends yesterday, which was nice. It has been entirely too long since I've had that one-on-one conversation opportunity. I love talking with people, sharing experiences, and seeing how much we have grown and changed.

I was standing under the stars last night, drinking in the scent of damp grasses, and thinking of the scores of individuals who have marveled (in like fashion) at the same celestial beauty. I saw "Kingdom of Heaven" last night (based on the crusades, for anyone who doesn't know), and imagined historical figures gazing to the stars with hope as they stood on the edge of battle. I highly recommend that movie if you like history and can withstand 2.5 hours in a theater. :)

Anyway. Enough poetics. I helped with a little bit of yard work after Dad got home, then went to a restaurant at the end of the road to pick up (and bring back) dinner. It took forty-five minutes longer than they expected, so we didn't eat until 9:00. The rest of the evening has been rather lax with a little bit of TV here and there. I really wanted to catch up on pleasure reading this summer, but now that I have time, I can't find anything that grabs me. I always gravitate back to the Brontes, L.M. Montgomery, Gone with the Wind, and Jane Austen, but...bleh. I dunno. Maybe I'll find something that grabs me in the next day or two.

"the sky high above is caribbean blue"

It is definitely a "flower child" day. Hehe. I usually appreciate the little things, but today more so than usual. At this moment, I love nothing more than the chorus of tree frogs below the house...the glow of sunset...the feel of wooden porch boards under my feet...the sound of neighbors in their yards...and the slamming of the screen door as I make my way back to the house.

"what warm unspoken secrets will we learn?"

Another year is over. I keep wondering where last year went. I swear it was only a few months ago that I left Parkhurst. I loved living in Sanford, but I didn't have nearly as many ties. I think it helps to be excited about moving to a new place.

Spring semester was certainly better than Fall. The past few weeks have been uplifting. I am once again enthralled by the quiet hush of evening, those dim hours where the mind revels in unspoken musings. I am excited about this summer, but also filled with anticipation. Hopefully, I will have a job for May, but what if I don't? I desperately need some extra cash before classes start in June. This promises to be a summer of change. I was surprised to realize that I will only be spending a little over three weeks at home. Big change. It will also be the beginning of stepping out on my own. It will be the first time I have been separated from "my crew." We'll see. Right now, I couldn't be much better (except for strewn belongings and a nasty cold). Let's hope the trend continues. :)

I watched Phantom of the Opera (for the first time) with Kristen last night. I've had the songs stuck in my head all day... ::hums Angel of Music::

For a more detailed description of the day, see my livejournal.