Tonight finds me sitting and staring dreamily. I'm listening to Phantom of the Opera and thinking poetic thoughts. I'm indescribably happy.

"But the waves are calling out my name"

I'm glad that I only have a week of classes left, but I'm dreading the Trade Project that threatens to consume my weekend.

I know that it sounds crazy, but I feel so ready to get through school and start my life. I'm taking classes. I'm doing well in classes, but I feel as if I should be doing more. With all of the moving this Spring, I can only imagine how nice it will be to someday establish a permanent residence. At the earliest, my life will be settled in about two years...give or take. I have been working towards that point for so long, and now that it's so close (in the grand scheme), I'm impatient to get there. I know...I know, "enjoy it while you can." It sounds as if I'm wishing my life away, but I'm not. I realize that time is precious, but...it's hard to describe. I just know that once a few key pieces are locked into place, the rest will fall in line.

So much for going to bed before 2 AM. Hmm. According to late-night news, Prince William graduated from college today. For some reason, that makes me a bit more thankful for my own position. Unlike mine, his life has been settled from the time of his birth. Granted, he has more wealth and recognition than I will ever know, but that's a minor detail. ;-)

PICTURES!

Blah-dy Blah-dy Blah

It was requested that I update this thing. I can't imagine why. What is the world coming to when my random scribblings are more interesting than...well...nothing?

One reason I haven't updated is because I'm not really sure what to write. Last week was full of jolly evenings, but this week has been rather blah. Things were too quiet on Monday and the trend has continued. So! I'm sorry that I don't have anything particularly interesting to relate. The girl who previously made a point to shut herself off from society (thriving on internet activity) finds this particular period quite dull. Actually, I DO have a life away from the computer (contrary to popular belief), but late evenings have become kind of stagnant. So many of my activities don't exist when school isn't in session, and I'm cut off from most of my friends by work, location, etc. I suppose there is a bright side to everything, however. It means that I might start going to bed (out of sheer boredom) sometime before 2 AM. Hehe.

Jessica and Erin came over last night for dinner. We had chicken, mac n' cheese, and green beans. Mmm. After dinner, we watched "Friends" and "Everybody Loves Raymond", while eating from little containers of ice cream. How fun. The fun ended much too early, however. Two of the three parties had exams today. Blehk. I spent the rest of the evening (and a good chunk of the morning) studying. I don't feel like I did as well as I did on the last exam, but it wasn't bad. At least it's over. Now I can start on my project. ::mock excitement:: Amy is coming down tomorrow to celebrate her birthday, so I'm looking forward to that.

We'll see. Time...

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful."

God, hear me and help me.

living in a madcap world

Wow. I definitely have two very wonderful girls to thank for a very wonderful past two days. Things were less than stellar this past weekend, so I was really dreading the upcoming week. After only four hours of sleep and my first big test on Monday, I was feeling preeeetty low. Jessica (roomie) knew how I had been feeling, so she called on her way home from work to say that she was picking up strawberries and chocolate. Awesome. We sat in the floor and just talked. It was something so simple, but it was so nice and just what I needed. After that, Jessica (Hayes) showed up. The three of us just sat around watching our favorite communist, Paul McCartney, perform in Red Square (had to be there). I'm loving just having random conversations with people. It's the coolest thing. I honestly don't remember the last time I laughed so much.

I didn't think it could get any better, but I showed up to my history class today to discover that I got an A on my test. JH and I got Chinese take-out afterwards and watching Bridget Jones's Diary. After sitting around for a bit, we decided to make guilt-free Sundaes and watch Sense and Sensibility. Good girlie bonding time. :) We listened to music, watched a little "Friends", and then made a trip to Wal-Mart. Groceries for the week. Whoo. JL came in shortly after and another round of conversation and hilarity ensued. We introduced JH to Salad Fingers, and going to the GYN will never be the same (no, those two were not connected). Hahaha. I'm definitely still concerned about things, but just having this time has been so therapeutic. I'm not sure either of them read this, but if they do: Thank You.

"Ahhh if only far away from here existed"

I wish that I could write something. I wish that I could do anything other than sit here and stare blankly at the screen.

Insomnia on a very stressful night when you were only getting four hours of sleep anyway, is not acceptable. When I'm sitting here tearing up over music from the Spring Concert, it's probably time to pull myself away from blogger and go back to bed. Crap. Hendley has a gorgeous version of "You Raise me Up." Too late...

I'll probably hate myself later for letting this get to me so much.

Crazy going slowly am I

Okay. Crazy me has officially taken over.

::sighs::

::cries a little::

::gets very angry::

::laughs::

FIX IT!

"...laughter is calling for you"

While staring out into the rain today, I was reminded of my favorite movie scenes involving rain storms. One of the best is the end of Breakfast at Tiffany's...timeless. Another great one is the famous scene from Shawnshank Redemption. I think I have both movies here, so now the only question is which one to watch. I slept too late today, so I need to stay up for a while. To occupy myself, I'm writing letters and making more muffins. What a wild Friday night - hehe. I'm starting to think that I'm exceptionally odd...but I'm okay with that!

"tell me your secrets, ask me your questions"

I need to remember to bring my music DVDs down here. I'm sitting here watching VH1's Storytellers: Coldplay, and it makes me happy. :) I should get their new CD...

Oh. Moment of shame. I like the new Backstreet Boys song, "Incomplete." I'm not sure whether to cringe or burst into song. Haha.

"The drum beats out of time"

I was sitting on the front steps of the apartment building last night, just looking up into the darkness and thinking. Out of nowhere, a wave of fear hit me like a ton of bricks. What is my life? I have 1.5 to 2 years of school left before I start hacking it out in "the real world." Even now, I don't question why I'm here or where my life is going. I just live. Life rocks on day after day, but I never give it any thought. Then BAM! Freak out! Ah well. I'm not going to let it bother me. I'm just thinking too much. Things are good. Last year was a bit of a blur and void of academic motivation, so I'm looking forward to making this one count. :)

I was standing in the middle of the deserted parking lot last night, watching the fog roll in. All passing traffic had ceased, and out of the darkness, a bird started singing. It was an odd sensation...very eerie, but very cool. :) Simple things like that (a summer evening, a conversation, laughter) just make me smile. :)

Rawr...

Georgia College has a knack for screwing people over - heh. I showed up for my 1:00 Sociology class, only to discover that it has been cancelled due to lack of enrollment. Thanks for the advance notice, guys! I'm trying to get everything taken care of so that I can hop into a World Civ I class. I missed the first class (which was earlier this morning), but I don't think that will be too problematic. I hadn't planned on taking Civ I (since I took Civ II my first semester), but I'm pretty sure that it will cover another area under my major (besides the history that I already took care of), AND it will put me one step closer to the history minor I have all but given up on. I LOVE history, so if everything works out, I will probably be happier than I would have been taking sociology, anyway. :-D Here's hoping...